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So I guess this is it.
Aug. 12th, 2008 | 10:21 pm
location: mom's house
mood: 
bouncy
music: "Anyone Who Had A Heart"::Shelby Lynne
In more or less six hours, I'm going to be waking up and getting ready for the American Idol auditions. I look at this as an opportunity that couldn't be passed up but........it's nothing I've trained for for over a month or so. Before I knew how to talk, I sang and singing is something that is a huge part of me......but if I dont' make it, it's not hte end of the world. I kind of want to be an artist anyway.
If I do make it, I'm hoping my path will swing back that way in the end.
After all, no one says you have to have only one passion.....though my economics teacher used to remind us that a Jack of all trades is master of none.......meh.
But at this point, American Idol or no, I'm going through a mental makeover. I want to find a happy medium and avoid sending out the wrong message, because I think my messages are often misconstrued. You see.......I'm conceited, and it's a problem. If you'd like, you can check the definition, because it's not actually an exact synonym for "vain". To be conceited is to be self-centered, but it doesn't exactly mean you like yourself extremely, and I don't as much as someone may point the finger and say. Rather, I have a huge hatered for myself and my ways but confidence to save me, so.......it can look like a narcicistic masochist type of complex. Most of this comes from the fact that I'm so horrified by my actions and words to anyone on any given moment that I constantly worry in retrospect and try to do anything possible to compensate for that embarassment.
But........somehow, I need to change that. I doubt anyone will see that as anything other than me covering my own self-rigious ass.
At any rate, this is a long journal, and I know everyone has way bigger things on their minds than my own inner struggle.
Thank you for listening.
Whatever happens tomorrow, I'm not worried about it.
If I do make it, I'm hoping my path will swing back that way in the end.
After all, no one says you have to have only one passion.....though my economics teacher used to remind us that a Jack of all trades is master of none.......meh.But at this point, American Idol or no, I'm going through a mental makeover. I want to find a happy medium and avoid sending out the wrong message, because I think my messages are often misconstrued. You see.......I'm conceited, and it's a problem. If you'd like, you can check the definition, because it's not actually an exact synonym for "vain". To be conceited is to be self-centered, but it doesn't exactly mean you like yourself extremely, and I don't as much as someone may point the finger and say. Rather, I have a huge hatered for myself and my ways but confidence to save me, so.......it can look like a narcicistic masochist type of complex. Most of this comes from the fact that I'm so horrified by my actions and words to anyone on any given moment that I constantly worry in retrospect and try to do anything possible to compensate for that embarassment.
But........somehow, I need to change that. I doubt anyone will see that as anything other than me covering my own self-rigious ass.
At any rate, this is a long journal, and I know everyone has way bigger things on their minds than my own inner struggle.
Thank you for listening.
Whatever happens tomorrow, I'm not worried about it.
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Two Sides of the Same Coin
Aug. 8th, 2008 | 10:09 pm
location: Texas
mood: 
contemplative
music: Such Great Heights :: The Postal Service
I've been thinking a lot lately about my characters....or really, the twins/triplets. Triplets fascinate me because their dymanics differ so from twins. The "acting as one" cliche disappears because it's very unlikely that three people, no matter how alike in appearance, will act exactly the same or in the same interests. Another thing that gets interesting is the "extremes" or "opposites" cliche, since if you apply that to three people, there's now someone in the middle. This can usually mean several things, but I've messed with two so far: The person can be unaffected by the other two, as with Susan and her neurotic, orderly psychiatrist brother Seymour and her excentric, sometimes psychotic flaming brother Simon, and keep order or they can be swayed one way or the other between them, as with codependent Addileinie and her corrupt sister Anistasia or her righious alternative, Annidelie. Either way, triplets are fun....but by the title of this rant I called a journal, I really wanted to talk about tiwns, since two different pairs have dominated my mind all summer: Thomas and William, and of course, Phil and Fred.
( Fred and Phil )
I know I have more twin sets than those......they're a favorite effect of mine. :D However, I'll keep this rant to a minimum and sign off now.
For thsoe who read, thanks for your time and your thoughts and opinions are appreciated, even if critisizing.
For those who dont' have the time, no offense taken. I'm just doing this for the hell of it right now. ^^;
Thanks for listening!
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PLEASE tell me this is all April Fool's....a really LONG one....
Apr. 7th, 2006 | 04:50 pm
location: My head; it's where they make me live...
mood: 
crushed
music: Linkin Park - Nobody's Listening
I can't think of what I did to piss God off, but man, I think I did....
First of all, I'm really glad you don't have cancer Shu. I don't know what I would do if you did, that would break my heart. :o *hugs*
So....
I finally called my counsoler. We're trying to see if it's worth it to change host families. I know I only have a month left, but I'll never get this month BACK if they make it suck; I'm only here at this time, doing this, once.
And that stupid bath Nazi's not going to ruin it for me....
The dad is so nice, and hilarious when he got drunk.....but no one hast time to talk with me....save grandma, adn she won't let ME talk....
Their grandpa is in the hospital. :o Please pray for him, if you can....never met him, but that must be hard on them... (they aren't bad people, they're just too busy to host me, I think.)
This relates to another problem of mine.
My listening is great, but my speech in Japanese (and in English) is just dying. That's because I just finished Spring Break, which is two weeks of no school and no one talks to me at home. Sure, I did things, but most of it was with foreigners and I was oddly tired or whatever during the rest. But you have to speak every day to make it work and they just don't have time, even when they are home....
My speech was so bad today that my dance teacher couldn't stop laughing. XD I'm not offended, I TOLD her it was bad....hey, I rather that then the 'Oh no, it's fine!' ANY DAY...
And my last speech at the r meeting.....I was so jumbled that I had to just smile and say, 'You know what? They're gonna put this in the newsletter. I think it's best that you read it instead.' ....and they let me get away with it! LMAO!!
But I have a HUGE speech coming up.......gotta write that....and TALK!
In other news, I'm quitting volleyball in a week.
I practice and practice, but I still can't play games. I have no goal there, and I can't do it when I come back, so I figure it's wasting my time....
While chorus, on the other hand, looks really fun and it's something I WILL do when I get back. Plus, it helps my Japanese.
But I love everyone in volleyball....so it's going to hurt to tell them I won't be coming back after next Friday....
However, my homeroom teacher helped me chose; she reminded me that even if I quit volleyball, the people in volleyball are still my frineds, and I won't lose them because I'm in a new club. Those things can seperate.
I hate that I'm quitting something, but in the long run, it makes more sense.
Even if it did make me cry three times in a bathroom in the past 24 hours. o.O;;
And then there's school.
New year, new class. I have Smiling Girl and Satoko in there, same teacher.....that'S it. (why can't she be like Yukari and have the same homeroom? I LOVED that class!)
Even worse, I'm sitting next to someone who's half Japanese, who I pissed off becasue I used that to start a conversation.....apparently she's very sensitive about being different....o.O;;
And I'm in the farthest corner, in the waaay back.....in this area of friends from their first year who aren't interested in having me join. Shit.
And Satoko has a friend in the class.....but they kept dissappearing. o.O;;
I hope things get better....because I don't think I can survive with all this quiet-ness.....I would just talk anyway, but I don7t want to piss them off.....but I now notice that I talk to myself a lot....o.O;;
I even told my teacher that I hated my class....it was funny because she wasn't expecting such a strong reaction....
Then I cried when I told her and some people were in the room! So embarassing! >o<;
But the day got worse...
I went to my dance lesson, and the first thing my teacher does is unzip her jacket, shows me she's got a machine hooked to her chest and tells me she's having her heard tested...why, you ask? Well...
1 - We're really close and she thought I should know
2 - She can't wear an obi (sash) becasue of it and she needed to explain that.
So yeah, the lesson went fine. Everything was fine. But I feel sick.
I love my teacher.....if something happens to her....especially after I leave....
Not helping is the fact that my Japanese teacher is being tested for cancer...
Is there an adult frined of mine out there NOT dying or sick? Oh wait, my second host mom's okay....she better STAY that way, damnit! :_:
So please pray for them, if you can...
I'm done whining.
I love you all. Stay safe!
First of all, I'm really glad you don't have cancer Shu. I don't know what I would do if you did, that would break my heart. :o *hugs*
So....
I finally called my counsoler. We're trying to see if it's worth it to change host families. I know I only have a month left, but I'll never get this month BACK if they make it suck; I'm only here at this time, doing this, once.
And that stupid bath Nazi's not going to ruin it for me....
The dad is so nice, and hilarious when he got drunk.....but no one hast time to talk with me....save grandma, adn she won't let ME talk....
Their grandpa is in the hospital. :o Please pray for him, if you can....never met him, but that must be hard on them... (they aren't bad people, they're just too busy to host me, I think.)
This relates to another problem of mine.
My listening is great, but my speech in Japanese (and in English) is just dying. That's because I just finished Spring Break, which is two weeks of no school and no one talks to me at home. Sure, I did things, but most of it was with foreigners and I was oddly tired or whatever during the rest. But you have to speak every day to make it work and they just don't have time, even when they are home....
My speech was so bad today that my dance teacher couldn't stop laughing. XD I'm not offended, I TOLD her it was bad....hey, I rather that then the 'Oh no, it's fine!' ANY DAY...
And my last speech at the r meeting.....I was so jumbled that I had to just smile and say, 'You know what? They're gonna put this in the newsletter. I think it's best that you read it instead.' ....and they let me get away with it! LMAO!!
But I have a HUGE speech coming up.......gotta write that....and TALK!
In other news, I'm quitting volleyball in a week.
I practice and practice, but I still can't play games. I have no goal there, and I can't do it when I come back, so I figure it's wasting my time....
While chorus, on the other hand, looks really fun and it's something I WILL do when I get back. Plus, it helps my Japanese.
But I love everyone in volleyball....so it's going to hurt to tell them I won't be coming back after next Friday....
However, my homeroom teacher helped me chose; she reminded me that even if I quit volleyball, the people in volleyball are still my frineds, and I won't lose them because I'm in a new club. Those things can seperate.
I hate that I'm quitting something, but in the long run, it makes more sense.
Even if it did make me cry three times in a bathroom in the past 24 hours. o.O;;
And then there's school.
New year, new class. I have Smiling Girl and Satoko in there, same teacher.....that'S it. (why can't she be like Yukari and have the same homeroom? I LOVED that class!)
Even worse, I'm sitting next to someone who's half Japanese, who I pissed off becasue I used that to start a conversation.....apparently she's very sensitive about being different....o.O;;
And I'm in the farthest corner, in the waaay back.....in this area of friends from their first year who aren't interested in having me join. Shit.
And Satoko has a friend in the class.....but they kept dissappearing. o.O;;
I hope things get better....because I don't think I can survive with all this quiet-ness.....I would just talk anyway, but I don7t want to piss them off.....but I now notice that I talk to myself a lot....o.O;;
I even told my teacher that I hated my class....it was funny because she wasn't expecting such a strong reaction....
Then I cried when I told her and some people were in the room! So embarassing! >o<;
But the day got worse...
I went to my dance lesson, and the first thing my teacher does is unzip her jacket, shows me she's got a machine hooked to her chest and tells me she's having her heard tested...why, you ask? Well...
1 - We're really close and she thought I should know
2 - She can't wear an obi (sash) becasue of it and she needed to explain that.
So yeah, the lesson went fine. Everything was fine. But I feel sick.
I love my teacher.....if something happens to her....especially after I leave....
Not helping is the fact that my Japanese teacher is being tested for cancer...
Is there an adult frined of mine out there NOT dying or sick? Oh wait, my second host mom's okay....she better STAY that way, damnit! :_:
So please pray for them, if you can...
I'm done whining.
I love you all. Stay safe!
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Well, I guess this is goodbye...
Aug. 15th, 2005 | 09:19 am
mood: numb......for now.....*cries*
music: Green Day :: Good Riddance
Today is my last full day in America, and also my last day with my family and you guys. While I won't be able to go online by the time you read this, I'm at my mom's house and my phone is available if there is anything you forgot or need. (yes, Hideki, I have your DVD....XD)
My mind is numb and for some odd reason, despite conditions that made Mara cry (aw.....lol), my eyes seem incapable of expressing these emotions and I feel neither excited nor disappointed.
Well, I wanted a clean slate, so I guess I got it. ;D
Tomorrow, from 7:15 to 8:26 I'll be at the airport, if anyone wants to and can make it. (if you can make it, the earlier the better, ni?)
I miss everyone already, but I'll write and email the addresses I have. ^^ (for those of you who didn't COME.......tough luck. XD, nah, jk)
Like I said before, I can't keep a livejournal, so this is my last entry for about eleven months. However, my email lets me know when someone comments so, if you don't have my address or you're just bored and you want to say something, just comment to this post and I'll respond. ;D
Have a great year in America, bitches!
........what? It got too serious....... (lol, Vinnie told me it sounded like I was dying or something and to lighten da mood. ^^)
.....yeah.
-- Chii * chan --
My mind is numb and for some odd reason, despite conditions that made Mara cry (aw.....lol), my eyes seem incapable of expressing these emotions and I feel neither excited nor disappointed.
Well, I wanted a clean slate, so I guess I got it. ;D
Tomorrow, from 7:15 to 8:26 I'll be at the airport, if anyone wants to and can make it. (if you can make it, the earlier the better, ni?)
I miss everyone already, but I'll write and email the addresses I have. ^^ (for those of you who didn't COME.......tough luck. XD, nah, jk)
Like I said before, I can't keep a livejournal, so this is my last entry for about eleven months. However, my email lets me know when someone comments so, if you don't have my address or you're just bored and you want to say something, just comment to this post and I'll respond. ;D
Have a great year in America, bitches!
........what? It got too serious....... (lol, Vinnie told me it sounded like I was dying or something and to lighten da mood. ^^)
.....yeah.
-- Chii * chan --
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Well, didn't get my ticket yet, but 4 days to go!
Aug. 12th, 2005 | 02:50 pm
mood: 
freaked out
music: Purple People Eater (it's from an AMV, don't ask XD)
And I get to stay in Tokyo for a night! (un-s-u-p-e-r-v-i-s-e-d! XD)
HHEHEHEHE.........Tokyo will wish for Godzilla after I'm done......nah, JK.
But seriously...
Tomorrow's my party. So far, I don't know if Nikki, Lexie, Draggy, Catherine, AJ, or Christina are coming, so if you see them, ASK DAMNIT!
Wait.....it'll be too late then....*cries*
As for you guys, Krysta, Steph, Rin, Jessica, (I'm not expecting Aya to feel good enough, but if so, Aya), etc. are you coming? I haven't heard anything from you...
I know that Fez, Chibi, Coli, Vash, Mara, Ciel, and I'm not sure if I forgot anyone, are coming.
LET ME KNOW! CAll me at 287-5500 so I know you're coming.
HHEHEHEHE.........Tokyo will wish for Godzilla after I'm done......nah, JK.
But seriously...
Tomorrow's my party. So far, I don't know if Nikki, Lexie, Draggy, Catherine, AJ, or Christina are coming, so if you see them, ASK DAMNIT!
Wait.....it'll be too late then....*cries*
As for you guys, Krysta, Steph, Rin, Jessica, (I'm not expecting Aya to feel good enough, but if so, Aya), etc. are you coming? I haven't heard anything from you...
I know that Fez, Chibi, Coli, Vash, Mara, Ciel, and I'm not sure if I forgot anyone, are coming.
LET ME KNOW! CAll me at 287-5500 so I know you're coming.
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Skip to da "@Ahem@" if ya just wanna get to da point. ;D
Aug. 9th, 2005 | 01:08 am
mood: 
I don' wanna go!! *cries*
music: The Doors : : Jim Morrison on Acid
Nya nya nya....I can sleep late and not do work and stay up till unreal hours of the night.........I can freak out and hurry to pack everything I own and everything I think I need and keep hearing my faimily talk about the future like I died or something..........and lemme tell you..... I T S U C K S L I K E A M O F O !!!!!!!
I wanna go to f*ing school too!
I don't wanna go anymore! *cries*
Yeah.......I'll snap outta it soon.......
Don't worry, in a few days, this account goes **PoOf** anyway!
@Ahem..@ (yeah, there was a point here....)
MAH PARTY!
Saturday, August 13, 3-9 (you can come late or leave early if ya like..)
It's at my house, in ma pool. We can play volleyball, chicken fight, submerge my house, whatever.
** BUUUUUUUT **
Because all da food in the living room was such a mess, my dad's not letting me take it inside. So no DDR fo' us this time.
So bring a suit, bitches, and say goodbye!
Seriously, though, if anyone sees Coli, Fez, Christina, Fish, Fritz, Nikki, Lexi, AJ, Draggy, or anyone not reading their journals daily, (meaning Rin or possibly Ayame, if she's not dead yet...(;_;) PASS IT ON! (everyone on LJ that's my friend is invited too, don't worry)
And just remember, I may annoy the shit outta you now, but you'll feel it when there's no one to make an ass outta themselves for all to see in those random wild situations. ;D
Well, at least not if Mara's absent....XD
Sorry, so many people had these and I responded to as many as I could; can't resist:
1. By what name(s) do you know me?
2. For how long have we been friends?
3. What song reminds you of me?
4. What thought/ inside joke belongs to us?
5. What makes me unlike anyone you know?
6. What is my best quality?
7. What part of you do I bring out?
8. Where do you see me in ten years?
9. What's one thing about me you don't understand, and wish you did?
10. How do you think I'm going to die?
11. What colors/scents/pictures/sounds remind you of me?
12. What's your favorite memory of a time we shared?
13. Tell me, am I a good friend?
14. Do you find me attractive?
16. Would you kiss me?
17. What's one thing you don't like about me?
18. Can you see us as friends twenty years from now?
19. What's my favorite band?
20. What would we do with a car full of gas and an entire day to ourselves?
Change Me (give 1 change)________
If you could change my personality how would you change it?::
If you could make me wear a certain type of clothing what would it be::
If you could make me a certain nationality what would it be::
Do you___________
Do you wish we could live together::
Would you ever want to go on a murderous rampage with me::
Do you think I look at porn::
Do you think I can be in a porn::
Would you star with me in the porn::
Do you think I am special?::
Do you think I am cuddable::
Serious questions__________
If I were to be in a fight who's side would you go on::
If I were locked up in a mental ward would you come to visit me::
If I were shot and bleeding to death what would you say to me::
If I had a disease and only had 1 day left what would we do::
If I were to start drinking what would you do::
If I were to move to Japan, what would you do::
If I were to die a horrible death, what would you do::
Respond if ya want in a comment. ;D
I wanna go to f*ing school too!
I don't wanna go anymore! *cries*
Yeah.......I'll snap outta it soon.......
Don't worry, in a few days, this account goes **PoOf** anyway!
@Ahem..@ (yeah, there was a point here....)
MAH PARTY!
Saturday, August 13, 3-9 (you can come late or leave early if ya like..)
It's at my house, in ma pool. We can play volleyball, chicken fight, submerge my house, whatever.
** BUUUUUUUT **
Because all da food in the living room was such a mess, my dad's not letting me take it inside. So no DDR fo' us this time.
So bring a suit, bitches, and say goodbye!
Seriously, though, if anyone sees Coli, Fez, Christina, Fish, Fritz, Nikki, Lexi, AJ, Draggy, or anyone not reading their journals daily, (meaning Rin or possibly Ayame, if she's not dead yet...(;_;) PASS IT ON! (everyone on LJ that's my friend is invited too, don't worry)
And just remember, I may annoy the shit outta you now, but you'll feel it when there's no one to make an ass outta themselves for all to see in those random wild situations. ;D
Well, at least not if Mara's absent....XD
Sorry, so many people had these and I responded to as many as I could; can't resist:
1. By what name(s) do you know me?
2. For how long have we been friends?
3. What song reminds you of me?
4. What thought/ inside joke belongs to us?
5. What makes me unlike anyone you know?
6. What is my best quality?
7. What part of you do I bring out?
8. Where do you see me in ten years?
9. What's one thing about me you don't understand, and wish you did?
10. How do you think I'm going to die?
11. What colors/scents/pictures/sounds remind you of me?
12. What's your favorite memory of a time we shared?
13. Tell me, am I a good friend?
14. Do you find me attractive?
16. Would you kiss me?
17. What's one thing you don't like about me?
18. Can you see us as friends twenty years from now?
19. What's my favorite band?
20. What would we do with a car full of gas and an entire day to ourselves?
Change Me (give 1 change)________
If you could change my personality how would you change it?::
If you could make me wear a certain type of clothing what would it be::
If you could make me a certain nationality what would it be::
Do you___________
Do you wish we could live together::
Would you ever want to go on a murderous rampage with me::
Do you think I look at porn::
Do you think I can be in a porn::
Would you star with me in the porn::
Do you think I am special?::
Do you think I am cuddable::
Serious questions__________
If I were to be in a fight who's side would you go on::
If I were locked up in a mental ward would you come to visit me::
If I were shot and bleeding to death what would you say to me::
If I had a disease and only had 1 day left what would we do::
If I were to start drinking what would you do::
If I were to move to Japan, what would you do::
If I were to die a horrible death, what would you do::
Respond if ya want in a comment. ;D
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It's a Pool Party........Sorry I'm boring........
Jul. 31st, 2005 | 11:55 pm
mood: 
thankful
music: None.......da shower in the background...
And if ya don't like it, GIMMIE AN IDEA! ........yeah.^^ Sorry, but I'm sooo busy with so much other shit that I don't have time to figure that stuff out..........hope that's not to boring or that people won't come now........;_;
Does anyone know when Catherine's having her birthday party? I don't want them to clash. ^^
Um......we're playing volleyball! XD Same people invited as last time, maybe a few more 'cause they're available.....
In other news.....
This weekend my paretns were so sweet... We went to Orlando and I was allowed to choose where we wnt... We went to Animal Kingdom.......^^ (teh chibiness...) We also went shopping too........got some stuff for my trip, but that's boring.......
It's so wierd for them to be so nice and for me to get to choose.......it's always been my brother who dictates everything, so I feel akward....I almost don't like it. ;_;
Teh senimentality gets worse, so ya might wanna stop here if ya don't give a shit....^^
Krysta and Maraness..... Aya and Riness....... THose don't nessisarily fall in da same catagory.......XD
They make me feel very lonely; I miss having a best friend.... I haven't had one since middle school, and it's so wierd to me..
I also miss having a lover, even a secret one.... But I'm not allowed anyway, and it's not like I can just cough one up...but still...
Two lives so interconnected...that's a very special thing. No one should take that for granted because it gets very lonely when the connection is gone...*cries*
Yeah.....um......anyway........ Anyone who made it this far gets a gold star.....if you're someone who never comments or even reads it, you get five of 'em..... I don't know why I have the balls to say these things tonight or the mushiness......but it won't happen again until I say goodbye anyhow.
Call me at my mom's if ya wanna do anything.
"The worst thing you can do to a masachist is give 'em a hug"
-Vincent (who knows what he's talking about. XD)
Does anyone know when Catherine's having her birthday party? I don't want them to clash. ^^
Um......we're playing volleyball! XD Same people invited as last time, maybe a few more 'cause they're available.....
In other news.....
This weekend my paretns were so sweet... We went to Orlando and I was allowed to choose where we wnt... We went to Animal Kingdom.......^^ (teh chibiness...) We also went shopping too........got some stuff for my trip, but that's boring.......
It's so wierd for them to be so nice and for me to get to choose.......it's always been my brother who dictates everything, so I feel akward....I almost don't like it. ;_;
Teh senimentality gets worse, so ya might wanna stop here if ya don't give a shit....^^
Krysta and Maraness..... Aya and Riness....... THose don't nessisarily fall in da same catagory.......XD
They make me feel very lonely; I miss having a best friend.... I haven't had one since middle school, and it's so wierd to me..
I also miss having a lover, even a secret one.... But I'm not allowed anyway, and it's not like I can just cough one up...but still...
Two lives so interconnected...that's a very special thing. No one should take that for granted because it gets very lonely when the connection is gone...*cries*
Yeah.....um......anyway........ Anyone who made it this far gets a gold star.....if you're someone who never comments or even reads it, you get five of 'em..... I don't know why I have the balls to say these things tonight or the mushiness......but it won't happen again until I say goodbye anyhow.
Call me at my mom's if ya wanna do anything.
"The worst thing you can do to a masachist is give 'em a hug"
-Vincent (who knows what he's talking about. XD)
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Going Away Party.....
Jul. 27th, 2005 | 01:12 pm
mood: blah
music: Iced Earth : Melancoly (I have a pretty AMV to it...)
Will be on either Aug 13 or 14.... (that's the weekend after your first week of school, kids)
Will be at my house....
Will probably be like my birthday party.....unless any other suggestions....
Any ideas? I'm wide open. :P
Who wants to come? (so I have an idea)
Very boring here.......at least you bitches have school! Then it will be REEEEAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLY boring here.......
Packing, getting ready.....don't wanna go and do at the same time........
Yeah, this entry sucks. Oh well. ^^;
Call me if ya wanna do anything.....
Will be at my house....
Will probably be like my birthday party.....unless any other suggestions....
Any ideas? I'm wide open. :P
Who wants to come? (so I have an idea)
Very boring here.......at least you bitches have school! Then it will be REEEEAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLY boring here.......
Packing, getting ready.....don't wanna go and do at the same time........
Yeah, this entry sucks. Oh well. ^^;
Call me if ya wanna do anything.....
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A week and four days left of summer vacation! ;_;
Jul. 23rd, 2005 | 02:29 am
mood: 
anxious
music: DDR music again........*sniff*
Yep, that's right...... Sad, ne? So.....GET OFF YOUR ASSES AND DO SOEMTHING WHILE YA STILL CAN!
Um.....yeah....^^;;
*cries* Only three weeks left and I terminate this thing........ *cries*
But....
I'M GONNA TRY AND HAVE A GOING AWAY PARTY! XD
I hope my dad won't yell at my procrastination.......might be the weekend after the first week of school, though.....
*sniff* Couldn't buy DDR.......we were too short of money and so I had to lend it to my mom.......dosn't matter, we don't have a PS2 anyhow....XD I wonder if ebay lets you bail out? ;_; Hope so...XD
Let's do something! Call me and let me know if ya wanna! If ya don't know da number, comment and we'll work something out! (at my mom's, she stays home, so I'm even more free there)
*sniff* I am not a *jerk, twitch, random jump for joy* spaz Hideki........XD (JK)
Um.....yeah....^^;;
*cries* Only three weeks left and I terminate this thing........ *cries*
But....
I'M GONNA TRY AND HAVE A GOING AWAY PARTY! XD
I hope my dad won't yell at my procrastination.......might be the weekend after the first week of school, though.....
*sniff* Couldn't buy DDR.......we were too short of money and so I had to lend it to my mom.......dosn't matter, we don't have a PS2 anyhow....XD I wonder if ebay lets you bail out? ;_; Hope so...XD
Let's do something! Call me and let me know if ya wanna! If ya don't know da number, comment and we'll work something out! (at my mom's, she stays home, so I'm even more free there)
*sniff* I am not a *jerk, twitch, random jump for joy* spaz Hideki........XD (JK)
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I GOT DDR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jul. 13th, 2005 | 02:44 pm
mood: all over da place! XD
music: DDR music.......have a lot of it
XD! *does happy dance*
I got DDR Extreme, bitches, with two dance pads! Oh yeah! Whoo hoo! Now I can play it at home! Yes!
*cough* Um.......yeah. Sorry 'bout that... Actually, I can't play it yet, I kinda don't have a PS2..XD
Either way, random hyperness...
WoOt!
Where did Chibi, Rin, and Aya go? They haven't been on all week....
wOoT!
Boys are so confusing.......their interests are like lightswitchs........and I'm about to have a seizure.... (five bucks says no one got that, ne?)
W-O-O-T-!
Tonight I call my family.... Can't wait to hear their voices.......at seven in da morning...XD
w~0~0~t~!
My dad's getting pissed with me.....might shut my LJ down soon...... ABotu time anyhow, ne?
COMMENT SOMKEONE! *grr!*
I got DDR Extreme, bitches, with two dance pads! Oh yeah! Whoo hoo! Now I can play it at home! Yes!
*cough* Um.......yeah. Sorry 'bout that... Actually, I can't play it yet, I kinda don't have a PS2..XD
Either way, random hyperness...
WoOt!
Where did Chibi, Rin, and Aya go? They haven't been on all week....
wOoT!
Boys are so confusing.......their interests are like lightswitchs........and I'm about to have a seizure.... (five bucks says no one got that, ne?)
W-O-O-T-!
Tonight I call my family.... Can't wait to hear their voices.......at seven in da morning...XD
w~0~0~t~!
My dad's getting pissed with me.....might shut my LJ down soon...... ABotu time anyhow, ne?
COMMENT SOMKEONE! *grr!*
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Jul. 11th, 2005 | 07:00 pm
mood: awake
music: Nittle Grasper:Sleepless Beauty
.....WTF?? (Anyone who's familiar with Shin can understand that reaction...XD)
Such fun in da mountains! Got a lot of footage too........I can use my camera now!! *does happy dance, looks all accomplished, Vincent sighs and pats head*
Now it's back to normal life and Japanese.....I'm gonna do an experiment! Got some Japanese language tapes....got a tape player.....gonna listen to them.......WHILE I SLEEP! XD Let's see if that really works.......it'll make a funny dream, at least....
Gonna call my host family soon! They won't write back.......*cries*
Rin, I gotta give you back your DVD.......and the RP.....wrote many random things in there.....XD Also, when are the horses leaving? I want to come over before they do! *huggles Shadow, armed with a camera this time*
Vashy-vash, I've got your Gravitation....will be done with it tomorrow....need to do the RP still.......we must hang out sometime!
Anyone who wants to do ANYTHING is more than welcome to let me know!! Hell, we can throw rocks at squirrels, then help the squirrels for five hours, I don't care...(sorry, too much family time, not enough with ma friends.......drives me a little crazy....@_@)
Damn, I should go away more often.......I got more comments than ever before! (Fez thinks I'm pissed at him 'cause I haven't emailed him back.......XD Tis hilarious)
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Off To The Mountains!!
Jul. 2nd, 2005 | 01:02 pm
Tis a Vincent joke....if ya don't get it, don't worry about it..... If you still wanna know, knowing it's a Vincent joke, just comment and I'll explain.
We're off to the mountains! To a 12-hour car ride up to Maggie Valley North Carolina, with nothing to do there but roads leading to everywhere else.... A little north lies Cherokee, a reservation town where we often visit for one reason or another. It's interesting to me because my bro and I are both 1/8th Cherokee and I'm curious to see how they lived after being screwed over. We're also going to Gatlenburg, a busy Tenesee city filled with pedestrian ripoffs of all kinds..........I mean shopping. XD An ADD person's nightmare too, everything flashes and beeps and what not... We're also going tubing, hiking, and horseback riding! I can't wait for the last one! ^^ We'll end the trip with a trip to Six Flags over Georgia.....this is exciting, but a little scary for me, who isn't the best fan of roller coasters........ But I will conquer them none the less! XD
Yah, too much information, I know. Hey, passes time, ne? I'm gone for a week at least, so you won't have to see these long entries for a while now. ~_^ I'll miss you guys! Ja ne!
Advice: Never eat Mexican on a road trip.........trust me........
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Off To The Mountains!!
Jul. 2nd, 2005 | 12:55 pm
LOL, 'tis a Vincent joke. If ya don't get it, don't worry about it.....
I'm going to be gone for at least a week! *sniff* I'll miss you guys... WOOT! We're going to Maggie Valley North Carolina, and we're going to do so much... Tubing, horseback riding, hiking, Six Flags Over Georgia (which I'm scared of, but curious none the less), and possibly Gatlenburg. If no one knows what that is, it's a city that is a pedestrian shopper's paradise. It's got crap up to your ears of whatever you could think of for miles. You basically walk down the street, waste hours of your life, and get ripped off at least once becasue of that "awesome thing you can't get anywhere else" that you're likely to find in another shop, just ten feet away,for ten dollars less... But it's still fun!
Maggie Valley is a little town in the middle of nowhere, with mountains all around as far as the eye can see. There's nothing to do and many little shops with nothing to buy, but at the same time, all you have to do is get on a road, and you're bound to find something up ahead. Farther up lies Cherokee, a town that's basically the Cherokee reservation. We visit there at least once to do something or another and, while this isn't exactly why we visit, it's very interesting to me because I'm 1/8th Cherokee, and I'm curious about how they've adapted after we screwed them over.
I leave either late today or early tomorrow (probably tomorrow). I can't wait!! .......well, I CAN wait for the 12 or more hour long trip, crammed in the backseat with my bro, who think's I'm a pillow sometimes, a footrest others........but other than that.......XD Advice? Never eat Mexican on a road trip..........just trust me.........
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Volleyball Hurts.....XD
Jul. 1st, 2005 | 06:55 pm
Today my bro taught me how to play volleyball in the pool.......it was hard at first but fun! ^^ Yeah, my parents never let me do PE in the past.......so I'm kinda just learning this stuff now.......I look like a retard doing but it's funny.......especially because I make many wierd "sound effects" when I get frusterated, and I sound like Chiyo-chan or something...XD That cracks my bro up. (he kinda looks scary in that pic.....o.O)
Had a great time with Vashy-san yesterday, but won't talk much about it, seeing as she beat me to a much better post already. ;P
Watched the first DVD of Gravitation today.......going to watch the second tonight, Vashy lent them to me. ^^ For some odd reason, I think Sakano's funnier in the anime.....Shu and Yuki's relationship seems better too, though don't kill me for saying that; I actually don't like them together in the manga, purly because I don't see how they can even be together because Yuki seems to hate Shuichi so much.......even though he says he dosn't in the end. I just don't see how that works.........but the kissing's fine for me anyhow! XD I love Ryuichi in the anime........I wanna pick him up and cuddle him....XD I like Shuichi better in the anime too, though I think if I cuddled him, he'd bite me........XD
Thanks to Ryuichi, I now know that "su" means "nest' and "vinigar" and "Suki desu" means "I like fun" XD
Sad news later, though. Yesterday we found out my brother has a leg disability not permitting him to walk too much. Eventually, they'll have to fuse his ankles together, and he'll walk like Cotten (from King of the Hill, if you don't know, think pissed off duck) or just use a wheelchair. He says he dosn't want to walk oddly, so he's going to use the wheelchair. I feel bad for him because now he can't play any sports and his life is changed forever.
Random question of the day! And this time, it's not that personal: Can anyone tell me the joke in this animated gif? Largo sent it to me, and I'm lost........he said you replace the "yay" with something else, but I don't know what that is.....;_:
Someone comment, ne? (other than Chibi XP)
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Fun With Painter Classic!
Jun. 28th, 2005 | 10:12 pm
Yeah, since you guys obviously don't wanna read long entries, you can just look at the pictures this time.^^ No signatures on them either, so you can lie all ya want, if you really want to...~.^ *sniff* How come no one comments anymore? (other than Chibi, that is.....) Nyeh, I'll leave you alone now. ^^;
<___________Hotaru Otawitsky...fear the sad
<-------------- Rough draft of above...
<==== My first full computer image! ^^
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My Brother's Underwear Scare Me........o.O
Jun. 28th, 2005 | 02:38 am
mood: tired
music: They're Coming To Take Me Away (Ha Ha!)
No seriously, they do......o.O I was washing the clothes, and I noticed that they said "Please?" in various colors all around them.......but when I folded them later in dim light, I noticed that in the dark, "Thank you :)" glows brightly.......
Well, at least the perv rememebers the magic words.......XD
Such a fun week..... Stayed at Rin's for two nights, conquered the mischevious MakubeX, and discovered my love for horses....... *glomps Shadow* Also started a roleplay with, for the first time ever, no Otawitskys whatsoever in it! *gasp* It does, however, feature Simon (the flaming lover of highschool girls), Seymor (the obssesive psychiatrist that records peoples every move), and poor Susan (the one stuck in the middle who adores Shin to no end)
Aya, if you can't remember, they're the triplets that are really tall.........I think you have a pic of them somewhere....
It also features the perverse Saga, the hyper-lazy (yes, it works) Zubora, and the ever freaked out Kishii.......Pure insanity. XD
This weekend we went to the Okeefanokee Swamp.....saw many alligatiors.....One almost ate my stepdad..XD We couldn't be that lucky, though. ~.^ That one day alone we almost were killed at least four times.......it makes me laugh. Vince really does his job, ne?
Woot! I'm going to the mountains on Saturday, will be gone at least a week. Want to do anything before then, let me know!
Random question of the day: Have you ever had a memory so disturbing you completely blocked it out? Do you think that's possible or only in the movies?
Give me a comment with your answers. You don't have to tell me what it is (if you can remember. XD), just yes or no. ^^
RYUICHI SAKUMA HAS BROWN HAIR!!! (Rin, I think you just saw Fujisaki..........^^;)
Lazy people, don't move to Nigeria. XD
Well, at least the perv rememebers the magic words.......XD
Such a fun week..... Stayed at Rin's for two nights, conquered the mischevious MakubeX, and discovered my love for horses....... *glomps Shadow* Also started a roleplay with, for the first time ever, no Otawitskys whatsoever in it! *gasp* It does, however, feature Simon (the flaming lover of highschool girls), Seymor (the obssesive psychiatrist that records peoples every move), and poor Susan (the one stuck in the middle who adores Shin to no end)
Aya, if you can't remember, they're the triplets that are really tall.........I think you have a pic of them somewhere....
It also features the perverse Saga, the hyper-lazy (yes, it works) Zubora, and the ever freaked out Kishii.......Pure insanity. XD
This weekend we went to the Okeefanokee Swamp.....saw many alligatiors.....One almost ate my stepdad..XD We couldn't be that lucky, though. ~.^ That one day alone we almost were killed at least four times.......it makes me laugh. Vince really does his job, ne?
Woot! I'm going to the mountains on Saturday, will be gone at least a week. Want to do anything before then, let me know!
Random question of the day: Have you ever had a memory so disturbing you completely blocked it out? Do you think that's possible or only in the movies?
Give me a comment with your answers. You don't have to tell me what it is (if you can remember. XD), just yes or no. ^^
RYUICHI SAKUMA HAS BROWN HAIR!!! (Rin, I think you just saw Fujisaki..........^^;)
Lazy people, don't move to Nigeria. XD
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Still Read The Other One.....This One's Just a Poem........^^
Jun. 19th, 2005 | 12:17 am
Feet that flicker like fire yet stay still
Hair that's woven with delicate skill
Eyes that hold no secrets bound
Emotions within those can be found
Around her waist is wrapped a sash
Tightly holding desires vast
Skin so pale light hast never seen
The way she dances so serene
A fan flies high only to dip down
Upon the sleeve tears stain the gown
Along the streets of Kyoto she walks
Never showing her suspicions thought
Only sublty does she hint
But within her eyes one sees truth glint
Maiko in birth is one such as she
Soon the color of her robe she will see
The forbidden hue of Murasaki
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
A foot on the road yet a foot to the side
Her confused passions she cannot hide
Life leads her in ways so blind
Never her true self can others find
Behind the masquerade she stands
Glancing at the many pairs of joined hands
Love pulls her heart to tear
But she's not really at home there
As she looks around to this foreign earth
Nothing's more unknown than the place of your birth
Hints of koto float through her ears
And to her delight Eastern sounds she hears
Curiosity rules her course
The path of the past has the mightiest force
A calling far off is all that she can see
Her heart's fate lies within the story of Genji
The forbidden hue of Murasaki
Hair that's woven with delicate skill
Eyes that hold no secrets bound
Emotions within those can be found
Around her waist is wrapped a sash
Tightly holding desires vast
Skin so pale light hast never seen
The way she dances so serene
A fan flies high only to dip down
Upon the sleeve tears stain the gown
Along the streets of Kyoto she walks
Never showing her suspicions thought
Only sublty does she hint
But within her eyes one sees truth glint
Maiko in birth is one such as she
Soon the color of her robe she will see
The forbidden hue of Murasaki
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
A foot on the road yet a foot to the side
Her confused passions she cannot hide
Life leads her in ways so blind
Never her true self can others find
Behind the masquerade she stands
Glancing at the many pairs of joined hands
Love pulls her heart to tear
But she's not really at home there
As she looks around to this foreign earth
Nothing's more unknown than the place of your birth
Hints of koto float through her ears
And to her delight Eastern sounds she hears
Curiosity rules her course
The path of the past has the mightiest force
A calling far off is all that she can see
Her heart's fate lies within the story of Genji
The forbidden hue of Murasaki
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Wheeee! Swiped Steph's! XD
Jun. 18th, 2005 | 08:31 pm
mood: good
music: Azumanga Daioh vol 1......awsome CD!
LOL, no one has to fill this out.......just wanted to do it. XD There is an entry under this, so go on if you're not interested in this:
5 things you like about me...
1:
2:
3:
4:
5:
Would you:
[] Go out with me?
[] Give me your number?
[] Call me?
[] E-mail me?
[] Kiss me?
[] Let me kiss you?
[] Hurt me?
[] Lie to me?
[] Watch a movie with me?
[] Take me out to dinner?
[] Drive me somewhere
[] Be my boyfriend?
[] Buy me a drink?
[] Take me shopping?
[] travel with me?
Do you:
[] Know me?
[] Want to get to know me?
[] Think im cute?
[] Want to kiss me?
[] Want to cuddle with me?
[] Want to hook up with me?
Are we:
[] Friends?
[] In a relationship?
Am I:
[] Smart?
[] Cute?
[] Funny?
[] Cool?
[] Weird?
Have you ever:
[] Thought about me?
[] Thought there might be an "us"?
[] Thought about hookin up with me?
[] Found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[] Wished I were there?
Are you:
[] Happy you know me?
[] Mad at me?
[] Thinking about me?
[] Going to repost this so that I will return the favor?
Got off of Steph's journal.......XD, this should be funny!
LOL, I had the best time last night and today... All the DDR and swiming, and splashing each other, and hotubs.....it was great! Also glad to know my stepmom wasn't mad at me at all. ^^;
I love the presents! I'm listening to my CDs now, and I'm writing to everyone in their journals! (the gift that gives back, ne? ^^) If any of you don't want me to, though, just let me know and I won't. ^^;
K-san, Hideki, I'm wearing both the bracelet and necklace! They're awesome! ^^ (though the necklace hurts when you jump on DDR.......and I keep looking at the bracelet to tell what time it is.....XD)
I'm so sorry Shuichi! It's all because of my party that you were Nakanoless.....XD Please don't hate me! We played DDR, took quizes, watched Caddy Shack and White Chicks, ate, and Coli and I talked till six in the morning.....XD
In the quizzes, KuroNeko got Hiroshi as her ideal Gravitation guy, and Ryuichi as her character in Gravitation! Now I also call her Ryuichi#2. ^^;
I'm going to take the footage from my party and make a Numa Numa iie music video! I'll let you know how it turns out.......~.^
5 things you like about me...
1:
2:
3:
4:
5:
Would you:
[] Go out with me?
[] Give me your number?
[] Call me?
[] E-mail me?
[] Kiss me?
[] Let me kiss you?
[] Hurt me?
[] Lie to me?
[] Watch a movie with me?
[] Take me out to dinner?
[] Drive me somewhere
[] Be my boyfriend?
[] Buy me a drink?
[] Take me shopping?
[] travel with me?
Do you:
[] Know me?
[] Want to get to know me?
[] Think im cute?
[] Want to kiss me?
[] Want to cuddle with me?
[] Want to hook up with me?
Are we:
[] Friends?
[] In a relationship?
Am I:
[] Smart?
[] Cute?
[] Funny?
[] Cool?
[] Weird?
Have you ever:
[] Thought about me?
[] Thought there might be an "us"?
[] Thought about hookin up with me?
[] Found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[] Wished I were there?
Are you:
[] Happy you know me?
[] Mad at me?
[] Thinking about me?
[] Going to repost this so that I will return the favor?
Got off of Steph's journal.......XD, this should be funny!
LOL, I had the best time last night and today... All the DDR and swiming, and splashing each other, and hotubs.....it was great! Also glad to know my stepmom wasn't mad at me at all. ^^;
I love the presents! I'm listening to my CDs now, and I'm writing to everyone in their journals! (the gift that gives back, ne? ^^) If any of you don't want me to, though, just let me know and I won't. ^^;
K-san, Hideki, I'm wearing both the bracelet and necklace! They're awesome! ^^ (though the necklace hurts when you jump on DDR.......and I keep looking at the bracelet to tell what time it is.....XD)
I'm so sorry Shuichi! It's all because of my party that you were Nakanoless.....XD Please don't hate me! We played DDR, took quizes, watched Caddy Shack and White Chicks, ate, and Coli and I talked till six in the morning.....XD
In the quizzes, KuroNeko got Hiroshi as her ideal Gravitation guy, and Ryuichi as her character in Gravitation! Now I also call her Ryuichi#2. ^^;
I'm going to take the footage from my party and make a Numa Numa iie music video! I'll let you know how it turns out.......~.^
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WOOT!
Jun. 17th, 2005 | 04:10 pm
mood: ecstatic
music: Numa Numa Iie
Yay! In less than an hour, all my friends will start arriving! (except for the poor people who can't come.....I miss you guys.......well, not CL, but everyone else....XD)
I'm so excited, I could just wet my swimsuit.........
oops, spoke too soon XD (JK)
Either way, nothing really to this post, all I did all day was get ready for the party, setting up music videos, cleaning up, setting up refreshments........
I hope everyone has fun! It would suck if they were bored.....^^;
LOL, I did a fake tan yesterday.....I don't know if I'm orange or a normal color.....I never had real color in my skin anyhow, so I wouldn't know.......XD What's worse, I missed a leg, my back, and other wierd random spots, so it looks like I have vitelligo! XD I put more on those spots, but nothing happens till late tonight.......
XD I opened the bottle, and a spider came out! Free gift?
Nothing else, can't wait. ^^
Oh yeah, we got games for the pool! My stepmom is awesome! XD
I'm so excited, I could just wet my swimsuit.........
oops, spoke too soon XD (JK)
Either way, nothing really to this post, all I did all day was get ready for the party, setting up music videos, cleaning up, setting up refreshments........
I hope everyone has fun! It would suck if they were bored.....^^;
LOL, I did a fake tan yesterday.....I don't know if I'm orange or a normal color.....I never had real color in my skin anyhow, so I wouldn't know.......XD What's worse, I missed a leg, my back, and other wierd random spots, so it looks like I have vitelligo! XD I put more on those spots, but nothing happens till late tonight.......
XD I opened the bottle, and a spider came out! Free gift?
Nothing else, can't wait. ^^
Oh yeah, we got games for the pool! My stepmom is awesome! XD
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Randomness! Stayed up till five in the morning, and still very hyper! XD
Jun. 16th, 2005 | 05:02 pm
mood: 
accomplished
music: Still don't know who: Blister in the Sun
Who is Your Ideal Gravitation Guy?
Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.
LOL, didn't see that coming......wonder what kinda Shuichi I'd meet? (assuming I could spell his name now. XD)
Woot! I made an Azumanga Daioh Music Video today! It's pretty funny, and I'm kinda stupidly proud of myself right now........XD If anyone wants to see it, I'll show it at my party. There are actually a few others I want to show too, if anyone's interested. (the others aren't mine, don't worry. ;))
I think I'll make another one tonight; I have another idea, and ripping those DVDs took too long to waste that.......^^
Nothing happened today, just getting ready! Sorry 'bout my random rambles! ^^;